'NEW YEAR but NO NEW ME'

I'VE SUFFERED FROM WRITERS BLOCK FOR ABOUT 3 MONTHS NOW...and it's safe to say, that my mind...still remains empty. With UCAS, coursework, mocks, christmas and finally the new year, I've literally made my brain exhausted, which is rather ironic seeing as I've been super lazy this holiday. I figure with a new year and all, my resolutions should be something along the lines of 'study hard this year' or 'do your homework on the day you get it' or 'ask more questions' blah blah blah. Yet, I realised every single year when ever I make those resolutions they'll only last the first week back at school and then suddenly I'll become the disorganised, stressed student who literally hasn't got a bloody clue what she is doing this term. Anyways, this blog is to basically wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR (although I'm 5 days late, I apologise).


The one thing I've never understood is this whole idea of 'New years resolutions'. I've never kept em, never stuck to em and never will (a reason as to why this year, I haven't made any). It's pretty blunt to say, but how many of you are reading this right now and thinking 'yep, that's me too'. I totally get it though, 'New Years, New me' everyone deserves a chance to change themselves for the better (and some for the worst haha) and honestly, I will salute anyone who actually managed to come out of 2014 still having kept at least ONE of their resolutions. I struggle to stay away from chocolate for a day, therefore, the idea of saying to myself 'this year I'll eat healthily' is a load of bs and frankly one I'd never want to keep anyway (seeing as I'm a massive foody). It just baffles me how the first question that is always asked (well to me at least) is, 'So, what exactly is your new years resolution?', and I'm always obliged to come up with something related to work, or school or myself, 'work hard' 'study hard' (next time I should say play hard). The point is, isn't it rather odd how we enter a new year expecting so much from someone already? and once you break the new years resolution, you're either laughed at, scorned at (by your parents) and a sudden disappointment fills within you. You know that feeling? When you say you will do something and you're all super hyped up for it, balls blazing, all geared up ready to go because you can actually SEE yourself fulfilling this difficult task...but oops your mums bought a chocolate cake with extra cream and you BREAK - and then the disappointment hits you, then the attempt to reassure yourself that no one will know and to have a tiny set back is normal, so you just continue with it. BUT suddenly reality hits you, and you've finished the whole cake. A rather obscure allegory to use but my point is, why go on expecting so much of yourself. Why can't we, just enter the new year, with the only resolution that you will take everyday as it comes.

I'm not saying that it's bad to have goals and the attitude to work hard is one that I also am trying to adopt, my real concern is why do we need to write it or say it as a 'resolution' as if you never attempted those things before. And I'm totally being biased, because I'm sure that there are thousands of people out there who have NOT broken their resolutions and stuck to their 'mottos' but my point is, take the new year as it comes. I'v realised, life is actually extremely short, we say it and think it but never actually fully understand that, that is reality. This past month has been filled with some pretty awful and heartbreaking news and it made me realise that I can't afford to miss out on so many opportunities that come my way in just one day. Whether that's meeting someone new, signing up to a new club or anything like that.

I think I'm talking rather frankly here and I guess this whole resolution thing is aimed at the ones i've seen all down my twitter page. Ya see, there are people, perhaps in the government or employers or any of that who have possibly made resolutions for US and to them, I say I hope you can keep them. This blog is no way condemning those who are ACTUALLY trying to change their lives around from complete disaster to finally a happy life. But it's just a general blog to the general 'stereotypical, twitter resolutions'. To YOU / US why must we 'resolve' ourselves. To anyone who has made a resolution about trying to lose weight, I say this to you, - don't try and resolve or 'fix' the way you look. The only thing you should do is to 'resolve' the way you feel - why can't we encourage you to learn how to be happy with yourself this year and to embrace the person that you are. To those who have the 'I'm going to study every night, blah blah blah' resolution - don't push yourself. The odds are you're so much more smarter than you put yourself out to be. Last year you probably worked more than you thought you had, and that's why those who are around you still support you. So why can't we just say that this year, I'm going to take the year as it comes and my resolution is 'TRY MY BEST'.

I'm so contradicting, because I've realised while writing this, that sometimes people don't make resolutions just for the sake of it and they actually intend on keeping it. I just think my point is CAN'T WE JUST ENTER A NEW YEAR WITH THE ONLY EXPECTATION THAT IT'S GOING TO BE A GOOD YEAR.


So from here on out -
It's GOOD LUCK, HAPPY REVISION, PARTY HARD, STAY SAFE, AND KEEP COOL.

Sasha x